I got me that free time again
In less than 2 weeks I will officially be done with University. There is nothing special about that at all. I'm 36 and finishing my first degree, the word first kinda implies there might be a second or further study. There won't be based on my current feelings of higher education. As much as I've enjoyed my degree I have also been looking forward to this day for some time now. At first it was because I wanted a degree or at least some sort of education but as time trundled along it was because I was tired and burnt out.
Now the day is slowly drawing nearer and I have little to no work to do for my final assignments. My time is mine once more and it's exciting and scary all at once. All those days I dreamed of just playing my steamdeck or reading in bed all day or binge watching junk tv with a pizza. I can do them now if I want but I need to change gears in my head first. Iv spent the last few years in top gear(damn I could watch classic top gear special in bed!) and now I gotta slow my brain down to a leisurely cruise.
I have been in the same routine for so long that it feels weird to not need to follow it anymore. I can blog at whatever time I want now because I have some mental bandwidth to write stuff. Like this! These next few weeks I can slowly dismantle the work/study routine and build another version. It feels good to have free time again and to enjoy it guilt free.