a quick look at my job
I am a support worker who works with autistic people in housing support. It is a weird job and not one that I would want to do forever. This is not because I dislike it but more because I don't feel fulfilled with it. It kinda scratches the itch for doing something meaningful but at the end of the day the bureaucracy around the job is what makes it tough. Also the mostly useless co workers.
This is what I struggle with the most. Due to the nature of the job and the fact that the people we support are very routine oriented it becomes very monotonous. Like grooves in a record. Round and round. Routines can be in place for months on end and then maybe someone discover a way to change it up and we are set onto a new groove. It can also be a two steps forward one step back then one step forward and two steps back kinda job. These are just the natural flows of the job
So you can see how the bureaucracy and useless co workers might add another layer of complexity to the job. I am aware that the rules and regulations are in place to prevent abuse from taking place, even though they still happen. So it's more difficult to complain about them but they can sometimes be blanket rules that don't apply to every person in the system. There are unique cases that require people to acknowledge that the rules aren't actually helping the person and are indeed hindering the service.
This aspect of the job has motivated me to get more into philosophy and reassess my views of whats right and what I believe to be the best way to help people. Most times when I come home from work it can take me hours to switch off. I am debating the ethics of my views and choices and how I view the world. Am I right or is the world a little bit broken? What is a just world? All these thought whizzing through my head. Sometimes I will wake up the day after work and still be pondering these questions. Just thinking about it now is probably not going to help me at all.
As for the co worker thing. Some people are just bad at their job. Some people just do it for the money and that fine I suppose. They are filling a gap in the system even though they are basically working against you by cutting corners and doing whatever it takes to make their day easier. A tale as old as time I guess. Think of sisyphus pushing his rock up the mountain and then these people come along and put an obstacle in the way. Best way to describe this job and bad co workers.
I don't hate the job. It's just grinding on me. I don't want to keep plugging away at it forever and not make any real progress. I know im not selling it well but this is just my experience in my little service. I think people should do this if only to learn more about humans.